Thursday, December 30, 2010

This comes to end 4 2010..........................................


To everyone..........................
thank you for take a look at by my blog....................................
as 2010 it was quite emotional year for me...............................
the most challenges i face in my entire life in 16 years old.......................
it is horrifiying but what to do life has still go on.......................
but i love myself now....................
in 2010 i learnt so many things about myself.....................
in these 1 years i was finding who am the hell I?
in my blog how many times that i used i...................
Then i realised my self if I take care more about me.................................
what could be like if i take care about the other people in my life as they might be important for me or not important..........................
in 2010, it was quite the year that I quarell to the most people...................
coz I was the only one that controlling myself....................as i was in hostel.............
Then I realised that thinking about urself might be fun but sometimes can lead to sumwhere else
2010 is the year that i most cried in my life............either it was homesick, sickness due to surroundings and acing challanges......................but AT THIS MOMENT I WOULD LIKE TO THANK TO MISS SHIDA AS SHE TAUGHT ME THAT WHEN FACING CHALLENGES TRY TO FACE IT INSTEAD QUIT IT....................................THANK YOU MISS SHIDA.....................

then in 2010 the first birthday that i celebrated without my parents it was quite sad that time i was at hostel it was quite fun as my friends pranked me........................it was a memorable moment......................................

in 2010 i really exposed myself as my parents said that i am matured in thinking wise but forget it mom and dad i will be always childish.

in sabda i love my classmates very much.............................everyone actually coz they are so friendly and so prank as well as straight foward....................................
tq 4 al farghani
azmeer, afif , nazrin, brian,cheong, atol maira, alya, izzah, akmal, specky as faiz , nur faiez, taha, izzuan , haris, izi, jalil,fatin, dayah, maziah, ika, taha, nat, esha,deeba, pika, mira, syuk,maya,bella, dzul, fizu, amalina dan kwn plg best ez ati............thx 4 de advice yg zati bg..mmg berguna dlm hidup sy...................................and jika sesiapa sy lupe sorry wei....................
terima kasih kerana korang jaga sy dengan baik...........serta berkongsi kenangan pahit dan manis......................u all guys and girlz totally rockz.........jika sy tersalah sorry wei................
1n 2010 too i was too late to be think what would be I be in future?
at also makes me to wear simple also can be stylish as sabda gives me a chance to wear cultural dress either malay or indian
it makes me want to laugh....................................

most important as in 2010..........................
i was get so many relation as i was at boarding school

i got many brothers as we really take care............sisters..................ah i missed them so much now.................................. my brother abg syafiq and his wife kak mimi, kak lili azuwani, kak bis, abg faris, adik fatin..................thx u so much taking care of me

luv u SABDA~ as given me a chance for my life................................to realise who am I really are...........

SYS`thx for accepting me back


AS 2011 i donno what is the resolution am I goin to take...................hope god will bless me and guranted the wishes that i asked in 2011 and forever................................... as wait for my next blog will explain my whole life from 17 years to beyond

as the end of
Me in 2010...................

my message.........................find urself that is hidden in yourself who really you are , be simple and just be urself......................


THe End of


ME IN 2010

Saturday, December 11, 2010

i am getting out from boarding school..................


this thing might be god's decision..................................

I am out from boarding school as I have medical problem..............................

It was very sad moment.....................

2nd October 2010

As that is raya day at SABDA...........I was having tooo much fun and moody at the same time......................



The night is the best night eva...........
wearing baju melayu....it is a very great experience as I really like it very much...............
i ate too much until i can realised that i can gain weight.......hahahaha...................

At that night after the function ..........the rain cames and i played as I shouted like hell........I was too happy at the moment...........................

3rd October 2010

my dad came to pick up all my things as I wanted to stay there another 1 day..........
my last night prep.......
i really enjoyed myself very much.....................
talk talk ..........most of time borak borak kosong..............hehehe

then at the hostel........................................here goes nothing............
I was too busy asking my seniors autograph................................then my class mates all of them surrounded me...................i was suspected sumthing goin to be happend...................
i just push the senior in front of me and run................................3,4,3,2,1 floor.....then i hid myself in 1 st floor
al 02
then jay came and dragg me......as torress came angkat sy as he pulled me
first bucket of water is full with soap water.....................
as the second bucket is full wit water with nasty thing such as mihun basi 3 days
then ..........i was shouted....infact i ws wearing new t shirt that my dad broughted my new................

i chased back toress hugged him as i am in nasty...then i was...........take my shower.................then i didnt slept i think so................................

4th october my last day...............................
ill explain this in my next blog ok.........stay tuned..................

Saturday, June 12, 2010

What eva.......Homework suxx and no more get out from my house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ArGGGGGGHHHHHHHHhh


What so ever my homework it just a big assignment and little reports........................

My mom never let me go out even to see my old buddies........................

What ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Next my school life ROCKZZZ but all my memories and the real me is in SYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I MISS YOU SYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Yesterday my indian old buddie called me................

It seems I misunderstood the all my indian friends...

Actually they didnt hate me but they still want to talk to me!

What is happening now...................

They said to them that they were so angry with me that I leave that school and they still like me as their friend.......I cannot regret now coz I find my path now towards to my future ....................

So I cant do anything now coz that is PAST.................


However I have to face them another two day that is on 9&10 July 2010 ...............

My school achivers award I have to go coz the royal highness the Prince of Perak , Raja Dr.Nazrin is giving the award...................


My studies so far ok I can manage everything except ADD.Math and Physics that quite hard............................and very hard to catch up........................................


My new school friends and buddies are even friendlier but I cannot be too close with them the there will be gossips and stuffs..........................as happened at SYS.........................................................................................

I have to care the limits..............

Thats all for now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BYE!!!!!!!!!!! Coz gotta finish my assignment....

Friday, May 28, 2010

My hostel life ROCKZ like Rihana but there is some CONS too.......................


After a few months.......................



I felt like being myself and more comfortable.................................

Getting sociallised......................

MY CLASSMATES trated me like their bro's ...............................

my studies sucks eventhough giving 100 percent of attention ................

after9 years studiying the first day that I slept is in my boarding school........................

I just get to used it until a stage.......................................



And my relationship with girl and boys makes me even more pop pop..............................



RIHANNA i missed your songs.................................

no more MP3 and that suxx too..................................








Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Yes finally I started my new life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I would like to thank my god coz at last my wish was fully granted on 2nd February 2010.............................................................................................................................................................................................


Bye! Bye!

Sultan Yussuf School

Im now an ex-Yussufian.................................



Hi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sekolah Menengah Sains Bagan Datoh...........

Now I am a SABDArian....................


6:45 am

Pass through my town and on the way to SABDA

I passed these towns.................

BATU GAJAH, TG.TUALANG, KG.GAJAH, TELUK INTAN, SIMPANG AMPAT and finally SABDA

I saw very beautiful things during the journey.................

very nice peoples and paddy field wants to make my memories at my village................................


8:50 am

Reached at SABDA

so many prefects tat shows wat is the tentatif for today........

then I just get a printed recipt that says like this


NAMA : ESWARAN A/L MADIAHLAGAN


TINGKATAN : AL FARGHANI


ALAMAT : NO 32, JALAN SRI WANGSA 4, TAMAN SRI WANGSA , 31000 BATU GAJAH, PERAK


RUMAH : AMETHYST

DORM: AL 13

KATIL , ALMARI, TILAM, BANTAL :154



then I walk in to the next counter

they gave a file then ask me to fill up the form

I started to fill my form on 9:30 am and finish them at 10:10

my finger and hand hurts........................


later go and meet the class teacher and settle the payment

then i went to the koperasi

buy important stuff..................


the speeches from the pricipal.........................

lepas tu MAKAN........................

then masuk hostel..............

put my things..................................

later

SAY GOODBYE to my parents..........................


then i started to meet my indian senior................

VEKASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tall

at my height

very tough

prefect meet him introduce myself

to them...........................


LATER at 5 pm i have to go to field its compoulsary to do some activity

i just walk then gossip with my schoolmate AIZAD..............


at 6 went back to dorm

bath and prepare myself for dinner...........

waiting for Vekaash we went together wit anothe 2 indian boys and 2 indian girls.............


aT 7 we lepak at Vekaash's class and introduce myself to these friends


First, Sesyndraa

he is from Ulu bernam, Selangor...........


Then, Barathan

he is from Bidor, PErak


Later,

Sivaparathi

she is from tapah, Perak


Finally, Suba shini

she is from Ayer Tawar, Perak


then we started to talk talk and talk

until 9 pm

we have to go to school hall

we had orintation week


The orintation kinda fun too..................................


until the same things happened until saturday.....................


On saturday nite........................

I was the MC for Malam 1 Malaysia


I gained popularity on that time....................................


then my school life is normal until last friday...................

BAlik kampung.....................

Now im missing all my friends..................................


finaly...............

~Sweet S-waran~

~Sweet 16 rockz~

Monday, January 18, 2010

I'm gonna really starting my new life.................

11th January......
My first day of my class started with a surprisew visit by Tn.Hj.Zawahir my add. maths teacher............
the lesson is interesting...............
Then English by my class teacher MRS.Mageswary
Later, Accounts by the shortie teacher Miss SiTi Fairus
Finaly, Maths by Mr.Zalamin but no lesson.............

12th January...........
PJK-Boring........
Moral by Miss Tan....
she is very strict
Later my sec favourite SUBJECT
Physics by Miss Roshazira
it is very easy subject................................

13thJanuary
Im so happy after my close friend Naiz agreed to on study _ _ _ _
We studied maths......
Then borak-borak kosong....................

until I was bored to tell this again.............
Until 15th January 2009
one of my finest day
FIRST I was late for school
SECOND I was insultee even worst.............
After that my history teacher damn strict
PN>KASTURI
it was a hell when her class every1 said except me I feel very comfotable

Go back home masuk online then My sis was using it....................
after an hour I use the computer............
Masuk online dan masuk facebook
then I remembered my friend Fadhlin said that the resault for boarding school can checked in online
I went to KPM web then I saw semakan tawaran ke SBP
Later, I click on the page
It comes like this
Sila MasukkanAngka Giliran atau No.Kad Pengenalan
I inserted both
Any resault i ready to accept
Then it came like this


TAHNIAH. ANDA DITAWARKAN KE TINGKATAN EMPAT (4) DI SEKOLAH BERASRAMA PENUH SEPERTI DI BAWAH BAGI SESI PERSEKOLAHAN TAHUN 2010
AGILIRAN
:
AK086K086
NO. KAD PENGENALAN
:
940511106203
NAMA
:
ESWARAN A/L MADIAHLAGAN
SEKOLAH ASAL
:
AEB2063 - SMK SULTAN YUSSUF
NO. TELEFON
:
05-2885916



NAMA SEKOLAH
:
SMS BAGAN DATOH
ALIRAN
:
SAINS TULEN
ALAMAT SEKOLAH
:

:
POSKOD
:
36100
BANDAR
:
BAGAN DATOH, PERAK
NEGERI
:
PERAK
NO. TEL. SEKOLAH
:
05-6466331



TARIKH PENDAFTARAN : 02 FEBRUARI 2010 ( SELASA )



Penawaran rasmi adalah tertakluk kepada Surat Tawaran Rasmi daripada Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia.

Hakcipta Terpelihara ©2010 Bahagian Pengurusan Maklumat, Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia dengan kerjasama Bahagian Pengurusan Sekolah Berasrama Penuh dan Sekolah Kluster, Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia

PENAFIAN

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I jumped around the house.............................
My sis all happy...................
Then I stared to checked my friends resault some of them got but some of them didnt
I called SMC Mr.Vijayan and Mr.Manirajan
Every1 is happy...................

16thJanuary2009

Late again for school
Tell to some teachers..................
They all happy
Meet all friends............................
Then, balik and ready for majlis kesyukuran pelajar cemerlang PMR at Hotel Seri Malaysia
At there
I sit wit malay guys and girls
the indian boys feel very jealous............
Then we sit ane eat first..........
we talk about our schooling.............
Later we ate get out from the conference during th principal's speech
At out side we ate ais kacang with servis layan diri
I put too much of pink syrup and evaporated milk and nuts too much
it not stands for ais kacang but it stands air kacang
We have alot of fun...........................

At home I got the letter.............
The form is very con fusing..........
I dunno how to do............

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

6th January 2010

Very nice morning to me........................................
Wake up after a nice dream that I'm living in New York working as a chemist..................
Very huge house......................
My sister all mariied and have kids..............................
I bring them to New York for their school holidays..............................
Being their best uncle in the world...........
Have fun with them.....................................

During the work day I'm alone..........................................
I'm still single and will be single for my whole life.......................
Because of my bad luckness has been revealed to world.........................
I just live for my self..........................................
and my parents...................................

Then, I wake up...............
itz 6:50 in the morning.........................
Faster take my bath then my sis drop me to school...............................
At school very boring.....................
The speeches from all teachers are killin me...................
Then I started to read Twilight................................
until The Accounts subject teacher giving briefing about it..................................

Then loitering at library after the school......................................
Watching new moon at there........(curi-curi lah)
Balik to bus stop at 3:45
The bus came on 4:40
Im so tired eat then sleep at 6 and wake up at 8:30 pm........................



~ NO BODY CAN STOP ME FOR~
Being MYSELF

That Day I, dreamt abt twilight................
I write this in a piece of paper

About three things I was absoulutely positive.

FIRST, Edward was a vampire

SECOND, there was apart of him- and I didn't know how dominant that that part might be- thirsted for my blood.

THIRD, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him

After I write that I went to sleep,
I dreamt that Edward is sucking my blood from my neck.
I struggle for few hours.
Then,I wake up
I fell even weaker coz the amount of blood in my body is become less.
I see in the mirror the scars is still remains there.......................................

MY WORST NIGHTMARE..................................................


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MYSELF.................................
hahahahahahah...........................................................

Hello malaysia!!!!

Hi!!!!!!!!!!
School's back I know..................................
Orintation week must be boring......................
I'm not sure that when the first day of school, started with my more major bad luck year
Raining heavily
THEN I remembered Bella in Forks when she start her first day of school.............................................
At school, meet all my malay friends my seniors...........................
mostly they asking for my resault after being so close with them
AKMA, IMTIYAZ, LIYANA, NADHIRAH, EZIEYATEY, KAK IDA, AINNUR
ATIQAH, SYAZWANI and SAKINAH.............................
All are very happy for my resaults....................
My friend Putera the first person I meet at school after for long time........................
Started to gossiping.............
specially on my classmates........................................................
Later the assembly started after drizzling tooooooooooooooooo
Ah that so not the drama............................
SPEECHES makes me sleep....................................

Today
even worst.............................
Orintation of these subjest
Chemistry by Miss Norazean bt. NorHakimi
Add. Math by Mrs. Haniz bt. Dzulkifli
Biology by Mrs Khairiah Azilah bt. Abdul Rahman
RECESS.....................................
PSV by Mrs.CT Hanim
Kimpalan, Arka dan Gas byMr. Alham
Sport Science by Mr. Pugalenti s/o Arnasalam and Mohd.Fauzi bin Sulaiman
Tassawur Islam by Ustazah Noriza

SAd news..........................
Ustad Azrulsham and Ustazah Zawiyah the Arabic studies teacher transfer to Klang..................
coz I just want to learn from them....................
It's easy..............................................................

At home my mom started to talking to me.............................

As the straight A student I and my friends get to go to Hotel Seri Malysia for a party orginized by the school...................................
Just can't wait......................................................................


These few days I can feel that I'm getting older by can see some marks near by eye.......................
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh
I don't want to be older.............
I want be younger..........................................................

I just can't be old coz I'm kinda childish...................................
I dont want to change my character...............................
I JUST BE MYSELF....................................................................
eventhough I'm ~SWEET 16~ this year..........................

My tution

I'll be taking these subjects only

Maths by MR.Kow
Bio in PTI
ADD.Math by MR.thamoo
Physics by Mr. Thamoo
and Chemistry by Mrs. Filomena.......................................................

The main and Geografi I'll be study by my self.......................................

Take care ok.......................................................

By teen in ~Sweet 16~

Saturday, January 2, 2010

I have to tell this.............

Ok every1]
this is the time i should speak........................
dont think that you are the best eventhough there r other people that better than you....................
Dont be hypocrite......................
I'm very serious coz because of this kind of person my image spoiled


Actually he thinks he is the best u know...........................
Im so angry................................
Until I ignored...........
This incident happens in SMC ashramam............
Now i am regreting......................

Another person was destroyed my carrier by spreading the neme of school that im goin to study......................
My carried is ended after 48 hours the news spread..............
Papparazzi was published this.................................
Then, I started to quarreling with the person until my friendship was ended........................................

Now, I am ALone
no support............................................................
I decided to stay away from social networks.............................
However, Im goin to try my new carrier music.............................


After SPM, I really want to go to overseas and forget this thing........................................
However, I have to study 4 two years in school.......................
At lest scoring 10A+
I really work hard for that....................
I just want to die alone coz when I was being these stage there are no partners....................................

This year I lost my best friend,
I lost my self
I lost my part time carrier
I lost my relationships in my family


Hope these organs in my body live after I die

Hope I will be useful for someone..............................................

*ps: when i telling these things I am crying................................................

3rd JANUARY 2010

Wow! I woke up at 12pm and started looked at the today’s STAR newspaper.
Then, take bath and wash my school shoes coz tomorrow is school day.
Then, doing some revision for tomorrow’s education and preparation.
However , Im kinda sad coz I really hurt someone that didn’t do the mistakes.
By the way this year is a very unlucky year to me because I fought with all my family members. The fight continues by fighting with all my friends. Then, I take the craziest decision, that im closing all accounts in Facebook, Friendster and Twitter. This is because I feel that this is right decision for me. Moreover, I don’t want the paparazzi to follow me. After the incident, the board of directors of Drama association decided to sack me from acting carrier. I sacrifice this. Now, I have to try other industries. Specially, music.
My vocals ok. Now I have to Improve my guitar skills. Then, I’ll try to change myself after the incident.
Be more cautious. I’ll be more like Mittchie Torres (Demi Lovato) in Camp Rock just try to fit in.
But I’m not just lucky as she was. I’ll try to create more songs.

AT LAST
Have fun in 2010.

If you have any problems u can contact me through
My mobile-016-5340138
My email – eswaran94@gmail.com
- eswaran_madiahlagan@yahoo.com

2nd January 2010

Today, I was mentioned taking the bas pass for this year in the morning.
However the counter didn’t open today. At last I went to my village with my cousin sister
Meet all of my relatives. Unfortunately, all of them went out. Then, I went back to home. Then at last one of my friend started to leak out my information. It’s about my new school.
Then the paparazzi in Malaysia knows that information. So I decided to tell to the media mass on 10th January 2010. My media mass friend started to asks about it. So I tell the truth. It just I want to start a new life. Then, at home watch movie. Indian movie kandukonden kandukonden. The characters in the movie almost suits me. After few minutes, my uncle came here for the first time after my results had been taken. He was very happy with my result. Then he started to talking about my new school. He said its not suitable to me. However he said ur decision is final decision. The now I have to think about it . Its my decision is final decision. I have to wait until when he come back from Vietnam on 11th January 2010.

Friday, January 1, 2010

Mein 2010!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1st January 2010

My routine..............
2am-12pm SLEEPzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
12pm-3pm Watching Tv+chit chatz............
3pm-6pm Sleepz again
6pm-9pm Prayers+watching TV

My speech of the year

Hello and welcome to 2010.................
This year is a very complicated year for me coz my studies getting more harder
and I hope that this year might be the beat year of my life.....................
My resalutions for 2010

being the topest student of all.................
getting more closer with my father.....................
being the one of the best , friendly and nicest student of all from teachers to my juniors.....................
Try to raise the economics in Malaysia.........................
Reduce the crime.........................
Reduce corruptions in Malaysia........................
Give a good educations............................
More attractive places in malaysia.....................
More sports that Malaysia can involved more over this year I hope that Malaysia can gain more golds in Commonwealth in New Delhi, India..........................................
Reduce hypocrites in this world.......................................

Most important be a nice person in this world......................